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fuck i'm bored

Fri Mar 27, 2009, 8:28 PM
is anybody bored with life?
nothing has excitement anymore. I've picked up new hobbies only to be as good as i usually am at them. i've lost passion for everything i used to love. i don't care about anything anymore.
the only thing that keeps me feeling refreshed is my jabbing another goddamn needle in my face or otherwise drawing blood in some way. and even then every single one of my "emo" blades have been worn dull.. i'm so.. fucking.. bored..


on a separate note... my friend Michael killed himself.
aren't i awesome.. exclaiming it to the world.
i don't know when, i don't know how, i barely know why.
i feel a little cheated.. but that's typical of us still living selfish bitches. always wanting people to stick around just for our sakes.

maybe i'll go lay in the middle of the road and see how many cars dodge me.

let's see how emo johnny gets THIS year... yayyyyyyyy
fuck i hate me

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  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: numbing silence
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~rcsi1 Mar 27, 2009, 9:06:19 PM
I remember taking a quiz entitled "what will your last words be?". My result was "Goodbye, I am leaving because I am bored". It felt so incredibly true.

Yeah, I'm bored too. Bored with living, bored of being bored with living.

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Tic tic tic tic tic tic tic tic...
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~KawaiPsychoJohnny Mar 27, 2009, 9:13:39 PM
haha. i know exactly what you're saying. and right now.. the more i try to think of something to re-light my "fire" for life.. it just makes me snuff it out more cause there's no use.

i hate this so much

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I speak Glossolalia divinely.

Give me a lever long enough, a fulcrum, and a place to stand, and I will move the world
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~rcsi1 Mar 27, 2009, 9:25:33 PM
I know what you mean. The only times I feel like I'm not flatlining are when I get panic attacks.

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Tic tic tic tic tic tic tic tic...
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~KawaiPsychoJohnny Mar 27, 2009, 9:31:18 PM
i think mine is convincing myself my boyfriend (who deserves so much better) is conspiring behind my back..

paranoid much? yes... very much

gives me something to feel like i have something to protect myself from, i think

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I speak Glossolalia divinely.

Give me a lever long enough, a fulcrum, and a place to stand, and I will move the world
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~blackdahilia Mar 27, 2009, 11:25:04 PM
I is has a Sad for you, We all get bored with being bored from time to time. The thing you have to ask yourself is if you weren't bored then what would you be? Not bored should be your answer...wait a min i didnt know where i was going with that. It was supposed to be a kind of pick me up, but look at my epic fail woot

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People used to explore the dimensions of reality by taking LSD to make the world look weird. Now the world is weird and they take Prozac to make it look normal.
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~Craig-the-viking Mar 28, 2009, 6:32:27 AM
shit...too many good people i know are having the worst fucking time, man everything really is turning to shit...and no matter what people say about anything, your better then anyone on the planet,and no one is good enough for you, not the other way around. you should never say bad things about yourself. if he is in some way he's a fuckin numpty

i dont know why and i dont care why, but i consider you a great friend and i love you as one.
my thoughts are with you nish, take care
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~KawaiPsychoJohnny Mar 28, 2009, 9:49:38 AM
haha.. but it achieved a smile

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I speak Glossolalia divinely.

Give me a lever long enough, a fulcrum, and a place to stand, and I will move the world
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~KawaiPsychoJohnny Mar 28, 2009, 9:50:31 AM
haha, you're such a doll, grim.
somebody told me people with personality disorders get really bad in the spring.. it's pretty fitting right now..

--
I speak Glossolalia divinely.

Give me a lever long enough, a fulcrum, and a place to stand, and I will move the world
:iconblackdahilia:
~blackdahilia Mar 28, 2009, 10:35:25 AM
what the fact that it was an epic fail? is that why?

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People used to explore the dimensions of reality by taking LSD to make the world look weird. Now the world is weird and they take Prozac to make it look normal.
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